Truthfully.
June 30, 2008
Who am I kidding? That’s the question that kept pushing its way to the front of my mind today. Today was the first day on a new job; I should have been filled with excitement. Instead, I was filled with the realization that I should have been filled with excitement.
Another job, same as the last. Different talking heads saying the same things.
“Diversity is a very important part of our culture (you’ll notice that 8% of the people in this room are black!).”
“Giving back to the community is very important to us (that’s why we expect you to spend 50(!) hours a year doing it: we’ll expect you to bill 2000 more making rich people richer!).”
“Work/Life balance is VERY important to us (see 2050 hours above; if you make work your life, then balance is easy!).”
Throughout the propaganda session, I could only think about how poorly this industry suits me. But somehow I had been deluding myself that I could somehow balance it all. Today I finally disabused myself of that notion. I’m not sure how reality finally got in the door. But now it’s here, it’s taken off it’s shoes, and it wants some goddamn dinner.
Hello world!
June 30, 2008
I am drifting, eddying through my mid-twenties. What were once slow lazy circles are now dizzying spirals. Furiously and aimlessly, I am heading toward something.
